aihh. i want that feeling back. you know what i mean. like when a guy you like looks at you and your eyes meet. and then you feel alright again for awhile. it's hard to get it back. my best friend said: "yala. i also liddat. you're not ready marh." so don't ask me to do something i don't want to. i have a will. and my will is to NOT go it your way. (: *i some how feel lame in all this. == expressing myself here. but it feels pretty good. :D so. ya, i'm not ready. i'm so pissed at *someone* for not letting me let go of the past. i'm like a lost sheep searching for the light to shine my dark and cold road. i wanna say a prayer : Lord, i thank you for this day, i hope everything will set back into place, i offer all my problems up to you, and even my best friends', i need you to show me the way, of right and wrong, and what i should do. please, Lord. i am lost, find me(: i hope i can ever get that feeling back, not looking too much on the looks, but it's the inside that counts. right? i'll try my best to do that, if i fail by looking past the looks, i still hope there's someone with a BIG HEART(: i feel so lame right now, == maybe it's because of my brother, but he might NOT see this blog, so i don't really bother. thank you Lord, for listening to my prayer, i know you will pick the best time, to answer it. and i'll be waiting patiently. i can't promise you i'll do that. but somehow i know i will. =p IN JESUS NAME I PRAY, AMEN!
